Okay, sooo up here in Santa Cruz i decided to give girl friendships a try once again…but ohhh how i was mistaken…friendships with girls are soooo incredibly effing complicated!!!!! So as always girls must create drama shit out of nothing…it all started cuz of a boy…can you believe it?! an effing boy!! jeezus! well anyway…so i made a new friend here in college [guy] and apparently it caused problems within some girls friendships…now i’m having one of my so called ‘close’ friends from college and my very own roommate talkin’ papas…what the fuuuuuuuck….to top it all off…i decide not to confront them…why?! well because we all live together, and i don’t wanna make shit awkward…so today, i kept my distance, did laundry and decided to do my homework in complete solitude…this trick decides to go make small talk with me and i’m just not takin her shit…i still kept my mouth shut…now i’m ticked the fuck off…she leaves…theeeen…my guy friends show up…ahh…familiarity…we laugh, joke around, and have a jolly ol’ good time…even make plans for this weekend….i felt so completely at home…what’s upsetting tho, is that i was completely right about chick friends from the start…they’re just not for me…drama is one thing i can’t stand…and before i end up knocking some biotchezz teeth out, i’m gonna call it quits and stick to guy pals from now on…too much pussy for me to stand…small exception with the chick friends from back home (berny, demerie, bree bree, & pam)..i don’t consider you guys typical chicks..ha…there’s no drama shizz :)

and I couldnt recognize the person standing in the mirror….now of course my wild ass morning hair had something to do with it…but I woke up with an intense feeling…college has really changed me, put things into perspective and along the way, i’m afraid of losing ‘Liz’…my parents were supposed to come today but they called and said they couldn’t make it…and i haven’t seen my friends/boyfriend in a while….its days like these when i feel even more lost…all the things i once believed in and stood up for are being questioned and challenged…behaviors that i once frowned upon are being reconsidered…its like ughhh….what has college done, i knew the person i was before i came here and now my mind is just going a million miles a minute….i have friends up here and we all say we’re family since we’re all alone and hours away from home, but i’m feelin’ nostalgic today…i just wanna go home, have lunch with my family and be in there company…i dont’ regret going this far for college, but i am starting to regret the person that it’s turning me into….maybe its just the day…maybe the hormones….or maybe i’m feelin’ a lil homesick….